I need to write this post to pull myself out of the funk. So many difficult things are going on in my life that I need to focus on some of the positive so here we go.
I am thankful for:
The tatting world. All of you encourage me so much. Many of your comments have brought tears to my eyes. I wish I had the energy to thank each of you personally for how you are a bright spot in my day.
When asked about my modest little tatting shop, I always tell people how lucky I am to have the BEST customers in all the world. Not only are you guys awesome customers but you are all my friends.
I am so thankful for the hospital that I am assigned to, the staff and doctors are top notch. I know I am in good hands!
I am thankful for my husband who is having difficulties of his own..but he makes sure to take leave from work so that he can stay with me in the hospital as much as he can! He has picked up additional duties around the house and has even started making me breakfast and the best sandwiches ever!
I am thankful for all the prayers being offered up on my behalf!
If I were going through this 100 years ago I would probably have lost the baby by now and perhaps even my own life.
I am thankful that I live in America. Even though we don't have perfect health care it is far better than most other countries (no offense to my foreign friends). I could be still living in Korea and I shudder to think of going through all of this there.
I am thankful for family, even though they all live far away they call to check in on me all the time.
I am so thankful for my pets. They are such a source of joy and comfort...all of them in their own ways.
I am thankful for my faith in a God who is much bigger than all of this. I am ashamed to admit that I have been kinda mad at God lately, but He has never let us down and things always turn out for the best in the end.
My heart is broken, I am still very sick but I realize things could be so much worse and truly I am blessed.
As for Picadilly, we are back home and back on bed rest. The doctors have found a combination of medications to quiet the contractions. It was much worse than I even thought. I was hooked up to a monitor for almost two days and I was contracting every minute of every hour. The contractions are not completely gone but they are much much better. My cervix is still short but has not gotten any shorter so that is a positive thing. The doctors have already started the steroid shots to help Picadilly's lungs develop sooner so if she does come early she will have a fighting chance. We are aiming to keep her "cooking" until at least 34 weeks. That is 10 more weeks from now and that would make her 6 weeks early but her chances will be so much greater.
...and guess what?!?!? I have some tatting to show. I wanted to post this several days ago but being in the hospital for preterm labor kinda threw a wrench in the works. So here it is...as sneak peak of a new pattern I have been working on:
I have also listed some new hook pens.
Being on bed rest is the worst so I am trying to occupy myself with what I can.