Friday, July 16, 2010

Things I am thankful for

I need to write this post to pull myself out of the funk. So many difficult things are going on in my life that I need to focus on some of the positive so here we go.

I am thankful for:
The tatting world. All of you encourage me so much. Many of your comments have brought tears to my eyes. I wish I had the energy to thank each of you personally for how you are a bright spot in my day.
When asked about my modest little tatting shop, I always tell people how lucky I am to have the BEST customers in all the world. Not only are you guys awesome customers but you are all my friends.
I am so thankful for the hospital that I am assigned to, the staff and doctors are top notch. I know I am in good hands!
I am thankful for my husband who is having difficulties of his own..but he makes sure to take leave from work so that he can stay with me in the hospital as much as he can! He has picked up additional duties around the house and has even started making me breakfast and the best sandwiches ever!
I am thankful for all the prayers being offered up on my behalf!
If I were going through this 100 years ago I would probably have lost the baby by now and perhaps even my own life.
I am thankful that I live in America. Even though we don't have perfect health care it is far better than most other countries (no offense to my foreign friends). I could be still living in Korea and I shudder to think of going through all of this there.
I am thankful for family, even though they all live far away they call to check in on me all the time.
I am so thankful for my pets. They are such a source of joy and comfort...all of them in their own ways.
I am thankful for my faith in a God who is much bigger than all of this. I am ashamed to admit that I have been kinda mad at God lately, but He has never let us down and things always turn out for the best in the end.
My heart is broken, I am still very sick but I realize things could be so much worse and truly I am blessed.

As for Picadilly, we are back home and back on bed rest. The doctors have found a combination of medications to quiet the contractions. It was much worse than I even thought. I was hooked up to a monitor for almost two days and I was contracting every minute of every hour. The contractions are not completely gone but they are much much better. My cervix is still short but has not gotten any shorter so that is a positive thing. The doctors have already started the steroid shots to help Picadilly's lungs develop sooner so if she does come early she will have a fighting chance. We are aiming to keep her "cooking" until at least 34 weeks. That is 10 more weeks from now and that would make her 6 weeks early but her chances will be so much greater.

...and guess what?!?!? I have some tatting to show. I wanted to post this several days ago but being in the hospital for preterm labor kinda threw a wrench in the works. So here it sneak peak of a new pattern I have been working on:
"CORAL ROSE" in size 20 silk

I have also listed some new hook pens.

Being on bed rest is the worst so I am trying to occupy myself with what I can.


Joansie said...

I pray that everything will be fine with you and the baby. Be strong and let everyone pamper you.

Tattin' Kat said...

Best wishes to you and the little one...may she cook longer and you not go crazy!!!

Miranda said...

I'm so glad that you're feeling more positive, and that the contractions have slowed down. It sounds like you're even able to eat some, too, and that is wonderful.

I'm happy that you've been able to get some tatting done, too. That looks very intriguing.

I completely sympathize with you about being on bed rest. When I was sick, I was bored out of my mind, yet didn't have the energy to do anything. If my parents and boyfriend hadn't been here, I would have gone crazy, and I only had to put up with it for a week. I can't even imagine what it's like for you.

We're all still praying for you.

Gina said...

There is so little that can be said that doesn't sound like a canned cliche or in a quick effort to be thoughtful, we say things that aren't. It's easy to say, "don't worry" but the truth is, if I were in your position, which I never have been, it would be a worry.

But in the few years I've known you or of you, you've been tenacious and steady and held on against all odds. I'm glad to see you focusing on the positive. There is always much to be grateful for. Sending lots of healthy love and good wishes your way, for all of you!

BSOTF said...

You are still in my prayers. I know what you are going through. Maybe if you hear from someone who has had premies in their family it might bring you a little confort. One of our granddaughters was born at 2 1/2 pounds & the other was just a little bigger but not much. Both of them couldn't wait either to come in to the world. They are both fine now. They both was born at 6 months. You are right about back in the day. However things have really gotten so much better in the medical world when it comes to little ones who just can't wait to come & be part of all the fun everyone else is having. Your little one just wants to come out to go on those bike rides & do all the fun stuff you & your husband do.
Yes, there are times when everyone gets mad at God. But you know what,,,he keeps right on loving us. He understands why you are feeling like you do. However you need to rest & not worry about things. Cause he's going to be by your side the whole way.
Counting your blessings is a very good thing. Not many do that, but if they did they too would see how much they have going for them as well.
Your work is beautiful. Just relax if you can. For that's what you & baby needs most right now. just think it won't be long & both you & baby will be looking at your own toes. She will be learning that they are fun to play with & you will be able to see your's again. (I say that cause it makes new mom's to be laught.)

Tatfully Yours said...

Rest sweetie! All I can say is rest!

Josie Passell said...

So pleased there are some positives. Your new project looks very interesting, lovely colours. Good wishes heading your way.Josie

Patty C. said...

In my prayers - just wait till they lay that baby on your chest - you will be so glad you endured - what a blessing :)

Isdihara said...

Sending you hugs and more hugs! My prayers are with you.

Krystle said...

Little Picadilly is so blessed to have a mama like you, with such a pure and sweet heart.

I pray for you all daily and I know God watches sparrows, so he is definitely watching over you guys,.

And I can't wait to see that pattern! Woooo it looks fab!

karen said...

It's so very good to hear from you. I can add nothing but to say I'm still praying for the three of you. He is the One Who does miracles and always sees us through. Karen

God's Kid said...

Prayers for you and your baby and your family.
I can't wait to see your completed project! It looks awesome so far! :)

sewmuchfun4 said...

I'm glad you can see so much to be thankful for. I've been thinking of you and your family will be in my prayers.
:) Ann

umintsuru said...

Dear Sherry,
I am so glad you decided to post this. You have listed so many things to be thankful for and that's just wonderful! All my best wishes to you, Picadilly and your husband.

Maureen said...

You're very brave.....stay strong for your baby, but you are allowed to feel just a LITTLE sorry for yourself too.......

Tatskool said...

Keep being a fighter, Picadilly will be a fighter too. Rest and tat, tat and rest, your design looks great. We will all help to be your strength as much as we can.

Ridgewoman said...

Good for you! Keep looking up! When one is on their back, looking up is pretty easy ~ no? I'm glad you are having an attitude of gratitude moment; and, that you know God is in Control!

Another thing to be thankful for is your laptop. Imagine if you could not reach out and touch all of your friends who love you. I found, when going through chemo, that my laptop took my mind off a great deal and was as good as a book (I could not concentrate on reading a book ~ had what my Dr. called "Chemo vision." For some reason the computer was ok...but books blurred.

You prop your feet up and take care of Picadilly and let DH spoil you with yummy sandwiches.

my love, as always...and soft hugs...


Jeanie said...

Stay positive and your baby will feel it too :)
Prayers and best wishes for you, your baby and your family.

Kelly said...

Glad you are back at home hope you get to stay there for the next 10 weeks. I'm glad your contractions have quieted down a bit. Remember we are all cheering for you!

Oh, and the tatting you posted is absolutely lovely!

Ladytats said...

Blessings and more blessings on you, Sherry, hubby and Piccadilly.

out of my 9 grand-babies, 4 were preemie, from 32-35 weeks. All are now busy, bouncy and healthy. you are right about "back in the day..." I don't think that all of them would have made it.

Doctors know so much more now, good things will happen for you I pray.

Isa said...

I'm prayed for you and you baby! Continue be strong and all it's gone be allright!
My best wished for you and your famly.
Your tatting is wonderful!

agasunset said...

All best wishes to you and your baby, everything will be just fine I'm sure. Worm huggies...