Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Hospitalized again...

Went into preterm labor for the third time. This time at 31 weeks. Contractions started again pretty intensely this past week. Anyways, my cervix is %75 effaced. With the help of another I.V. and several shots they were able to slow the contractions down again. I took what is called a fetal fribronectin test which can show if I will deliver within the next two weeks and it came back negative....so that is good news. Just hoping to get to 34 weeks...(hopefully beyond) but I have to say I am feeling pretty defeated right now. DH seems to think that I can just will the contractions to stop...if only. I already feel like everything is my fault. It's like one long never-ending nightmare.

36 comments:

Denise Felton said...

Yeah, I thought pregnancy was going to be all warm and fuzzy and dreamy. Nobody told me that, in the best of circumstances, it's a 9-month-long anxiety attack.

Hang in there, sweet girlfriend. One day at a time.

connie said...

Nothing is your Fault. It's nature, the human body and fate.
You have done everything in your power (and medical science's) to hold onto this baby. A lesser woman would have given up by now. Hold your head and chin up. We all love you and are hoping and praying for the best. Connie

Josie Passell said...

I hope things settle down for you. As you say just a couple of weeks more will make all the difference. Rest as much as you can.

Anonymous said...

Whoa, girl!!! It's not your fault, whatever the problems of the pregnancy and early delivery! Do your best and trust your good sense--that's enough. You can do it! My favorite boss taught me, "I don't do guilt," when her teenagers were raising all kinds of nonsense. It has been a useful and liberating lesson. Try it!
love and hugs,
Katie V in NC

Deb said...

Hang in there. What youe body doe or doesn't do is NOT your fault. Everything will be OK.

Joansie said...

Prayers and positive thoughts are being sent your way for everything to go well.

As for hubby....what do men know about labor...lol.

wordmama said...

I've been following your story without commenting. I didn't think I'd have much comfort to offer. I have admired how you have coped with all the difficulties of your pregnancy.

It is so hard to have all these things out of your control--the labor, the nausea, the hospital, and so on. You're doing great and I'm pulling for you.

You are in my prayers.

Miranda said...

NOT your fault. NOT your fault. NOT your fault. Got it?

You are so close. You've made it this far; you will get through the next three (or hopefully nine) weeks, even if it seems like an eternity while you're actually living it.

You are still in my prayers.

Angela said...

Menfolk know nutin' about birthin' babies! Praying for you.

Tatskool said...

Nothing is your fault, it's just the way it is. Hang in there, every day counts. Sending love and warm fuzzies your way.

H J Hess said...

This is NOT your fault. You just take care of yourself and do nothing else than concentrate on your well-being and little Miss P. Hopefully, time will pass quickly
Stay healthy. Stay happy.
Big BIG hugs.
.

Marty said...

No, no, not your fault! There is no fault here. Some people get one thing, some get another -- it's just a genetic crapshoot. I'm sorry your genetics shot you in the foot on this one. Grit your teeth, tie another knot, and hang on! I'll cross my toes for you (need the fingers to tat).

Bonnie said...

I'm sorry, Sherry, you remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Crazy Mom Tats! said...

Hang in there - I had preterm labor or something bad with each pregnancy, but all ended up fine in the end. Eyes on the prize, my dear.

Suztats said...

Sending prayers and positive vibes to you that all shall work out well. Blessings to you and Piccadilly.

Jeanie said...

Sending love and positive thoughts your way. Stay strong and happy :)

Donna said...

You are almost there. Hang on. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Isdihara said...

More hugs and love and positive energy to help see you through these final (stressful) weeks. The first time you hold your Piccadilly Princess in your arms you will know that all is right in the universe.

Just focus on getting through each day, one at a time. You can do this!

Imoshen said...

Hugs..I hope you do make it longer. Sorry to hear you've had to go back to the hospital.

Ladytats said...

prayers and blessing for at least 3 more weeks.
just keep repeating, not my fault as others have told you and remember, only we women have babies, men can't because we can do all the heavy work. so they grumble and try to make us feel bad because we are superior.
hope you feel better soon.

umintsuru said...

Little Picadilly is wanting to meet her parents but she will have to wait. I love what you have done for her and she will appreciate it when the time comes. She will!

Anonymous said...

Like everyone is day not your fault. Keep yur head held up high and know that everyone is thinking of you and have you and wee one in their prayer. I will send you reiki if you would like. HUGS
Bonnie
yeoldetatter at telus dot net

Lily said...

Oh Dear Poor Sherry,

Don't feel it is your fault - no one is to blame... these things happen.

My mother knew a woman that had the same problem - a short cervix (back in that day, they sewed her shut to keep the baby in.. TG for advanced Medical technology!)

Well, if you're back on bed-rest... at least that should leave you plenty of time for tatting goodies for Pica! ;-)

Take it easy girl, we're all thinking of you

Cindy said...

Oh, Sherry. I'm sorry you have had another set-back. Don't waste any precious energy on feelings of guilt. There should be NONE. Just give hubby a tired smile - they just don't understand. Take out your beautiful belly photos you've been sharing with us and remember where you are headed. Rest, rest, rest.
Prayers for strength and peace are heading your way.

Jane S. said...

You're already a good mom, Sherry, and Miss Piccadilly isn't even born yet.

You won't forget any of the stuff you've gone through to get her, but once she arrives it will be so worth it. Hang in there, girl.

Hugs,
Jane S.

Chiara said...

Dear dear sweet Sherry!!

No, don't think it is your fault!! Every body is different....you have 2 special angels: your DH and your little Piccadilly. Overall your little Pic is feeling how much love you are giving her althought she is in you yet!! Pic will be sad if you are sad, she can understand everything, she knows that you love her!!
I am looking to the tatting shuttle you sent me, with Holy Mary anche Child, I am praying for all you!! Mary was ama too, she can understand and she protects you! Hugs, dear Sherry! God bless you all!

csipkelelkű said...

Of course it's not your fault, Sherry! Don't worry, everything will be all right. We all are thinking of you, and praying for you and your baby.

Kelly said...

Oh some of the things I've heard that husbands think. I'm so sorry! It is not your fault. Some women just have terrible times with pregnancies. Sometimes I think it is a conspiracy to keep all the problems a secret.

From what you write here, you are doing everything right. Hang in there! A few more weeks and you can start getting to the new normal of a 3 person family.

BIG HUGS and BEST HOPES and PRAYERS

victats@gmail.com said...

Whatever happens you've done the best you can. This is not something you've chosen or done so no guilt. Every day she stays inside is a good day. Thinking of you and your growing family.

tattingpip said...

Please NO blame NOT your fault just nature putting its oar in. Hold on to all the positve thoughts from your Tatting friends we love you lots Hugs and Prayers to all three of you. xxx

beadntat said...

I'm so sorry to hear that you've been through yet another rough patch with your pregnancy. To my way of thinking you have been immensely courageous in your battle. The good news is Miss Piccadilly is doing just fine right now. Every day is one more day for your baby to grow and develop, so you are doing great! While the goal is to make it to at least 34 weeks, I can say with much confidence (and too many years as a neonatal nurse) that even if you deliver tomorrow, there will be a few trying weeks, but 31-32 weekers these days do just wonderful in the long run. This too shall pass...and your little family will thrive. {{{hugs}}}

SY said...

Hey sweet girl,
God Bless you and yours- and especially in your case, super duper GODSPEED (successful journey). with my love, hugs, and prayers, sy

Elizabeth said...

As many have already said, none of this is your fault. I have twins that were delivered on purpose a month premature because my body was beginning to shut down, so I understand the guilt you are feeling - but it is a misplaced guilt. Guilt should only be felt when behavior is wrong, and all of this going on has nothing to do with that you are doing or aren't doing. Many, many prayers for you and the little one.

BSOTF said...

LadyShuttleMaker,
Please relax. The baby just thinks the traffic light is green. Due to you both have been making her think that it's so exciting out here. Ok, now that you are laughing, that's what I said that for. Trust me I've been through this in more 1 way. It's no one's fault. Contractions can't be controlled by us. Even the doctor's can't do that all the time. So take it easy & rest. You don't need to stress over this. Just breath & relax. You & DH both need to just relax right now. Won't be long & your baby will be waking you both up in the middle of the night. Wanting to eat, be changed & oh yah have time for daddy, time with mommy will be when daddy is at work. Ok? So look at each other & remember how much you love each other & are looking forward to having your baby in your family!!!

Ridgewoman said...

It's all been said dear. "Our times are in His hands" and He has known us since we were knit in our mother's wombs. He knows Picadilly, too!

Dear Husbands often say things the wrong way, or try to be 'helpful' in their own way. You have about as much control with this as he and I do with colitis (mine from radiation). LOL And at that time…life can be the 'you know what'…:>)
They just have a hard time handling things THEY can not control. Poor fellas.

Don't be down hearted or loose spirit. Right now you and the baby are the most important thing going on….rest, cleansing breaths and rest again. "Trust in Him, and He will bring it to pass."

love, grams

Fox said...

Just saw this.... NO FAULT! Are you kidding?! This is just bad luck ... and good because dear Miss Piccadily is hangin' in with you! Sending you mucho hugs and thoughts,
♥♥ Fox : )