The last dozen days have been the most difficult of this pregnancy so far. It started with either food poisoning or stomach flue and progressively got worse. Yesterday I had an IV treatment which has made me feel better than I have in months. "Everyone" said "Oh you'll feel better after 12 weeks", then it was 16, then 20. Well, I am 22 weeks with hyperemesis and have finally accepted that my whole pregnancy will most likely be a difficult one. BUMMER!!! Apparently, I am one of "those" lucky women.
....I know there is going to be a lot of comments with a lot of suggestions. Which trust me, I DO appreciate, however, at 22 weeks I have tried everything and I practically live at the doctors office. Last week alone I had 6 appointment, 3 of which were in one day.
So anyhow, here is where I currently stand. I am 15-20 pounds underweight..(still have not gained a single pound) in spite of the fact that I eat every hour. When I do eat, food feels like it is poisoning me and I can only get a few bites in at a time. So I have to make sure that every bite counts and is full of the most nutrition possible for baby. vomiting and diarrhea are just a part of my everyday experience now. Super fun time folks!
I had my mid-way ultra sound yesterday and it was bittersweet. Genetically and anatomically baby is perfect...whew! But there are problems (obviously) with getting baby all the nutrients she needs which I don't want to go into detail with that publicly. Also, I have been having contractions since week 17. I was concerned about them but everyone kept saying..."Oh they are just Braxton-Hicks and you are just feeling them earlier than most women." So this whole time I have been thinking this was "normal" and since I have been having them for 5 weeks, I have gotten use to them. Come to find out this is NOT normal, there are issues with my cervix and now I am on yet another medication to stop them. Whoo hoo...the fun never stops!
So my goal for the next 4 months or so is to try to get this baby to grow normally and to not have her come out too early. No stress there!
All this on top of everything else that has come crashing down in our lives. Some of which is just too depressing to even put into words. Whatever!
Why doesn't God just strike me down and get it over with??? Seriously!
Day in and day out of pain, misery and diminishing hope does not make for a very jolly soul...so sorry about that one peeps!
...Since I haven't puked yet today and because of the wonderful IV, I have a little more energy than usual, so I am going to seek solace in my studio. Hopefully that will cheer me up!